Thoughts about art, writing, and imperfection

I took a kind of sabbatical from author spaces and spent a lot of time drawing over the last couple months, while also dealing with my health.

In the meantime, I wrote a lot of the next chapter in Lira and Willow’s story, which then got cut up and edited into about 30k words as of now. This book has been fighting me harder than any book I can remember in recent memory, but I hope it’s all worth it in the end.

I’ve been wanting to do more with my art lately. It’s something I’ve wanted for a while, to be able to integrate it with my writing, to be able to see my characters and worlds come to life. I haven’t felt “ready” or “good enough” for a long time, and in many ways I still don’t!

My breakfast/lunch today!

But I’ve also been having some thoughts about “professionalism” and what it means, and how in some ways, I think it’s what’s led us to where we are, re: gen AI art and the way some people feel like they need to use it, or that it’s more desirable than their own imperfect efforts. And I do believe that human art is good and vital and necessary, despite and maybe because of its imperfections. So I think I will at least try to begin cultivating the visual world of my novels, in whatever way I can.

Maybe it will be a growing experience for both of us!

Haruka Often Dreams of Drowning

Haruka stands at the edge of the ocean with the wind stinging his cheeks. He doesn’t know how long he’s been out here; it’s long enough that he can’t feel his fingers or his toes in his sturdy leather boots.

He opens his eyes when the icy cold of seawater starts to fill his shoes, trying to drown him and making him panic.

He almost drowned himself in his sleep again.

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Fragile Tender Wedding Ring Thoughts

Some self-indulgent thoughts about wedding rings in light of Love and Deepspace’s current wedding event:

Nice has a plain white gold band from Rook that he wears on a chain around his neck. It’s not a family heirloom. It’s a gift just from Rook to him, something new. This was important to the both of them.

Willow absolutely has some kind of extremely fucking extra ring from Lira. It’s probably made of enchanted ice that’s cool to the touch and never melts. It was hideously expensive and looks like a shining diamond on Willow’s finger.

Character Thoughts

There’s a thought I can maybe half articulate, which is that if Nice’s story is about being nothing and becoming something, then maybe Willow’s story is about being something, and eventually the right person sees just what kind of something you are.

They’re foils in a way I find really interesting.