that boy you once loved so much

Excerpts from a new book, ch. 3


Far away, on the other side of campus, a man with long, slender legs and a head full of mussed blue hair stirs. He groans faintly, and the body beside him stirs with him, making an inquisitive sound while still mostly sunk in slumber, barely waking up.

Robin reaches out and pats him a few times with his eyes still slitted shut—

Nothing to see here, just go back to bed.

Robin groans as he dredges himself back to the land of the living. It hurts waking up. The sunlight stings his eyes, and he has to practically force them open.

“Where you goin’, baby?” a sweet voice slurs behind him.

“Nowhere,” Robin says. “Keep dreaming.”

It could come off a little acerbic, but the alpha in bed takes it as sweet pillow talk. He rumbles slightly and shoves his face back into his pillow. His hair is a sandy blond color, wavy and tousled with sleep, and his sheets are clean for a college student’s—Robin’s insistence. He’s not going to sleep somewhere with a dirty bed.

Blue-haired Robin touches his slender feet down to the ground, recoiling slightly at the chill. He looks like a towheaded swan as he glides around the small and messy room, unselfconscious with all of his smooth, clear skin on display—the slender and shapely line of his back, his smooth and clean limbs. It’s still dark with early morning, but Robin’s eyes have always been good. He fishes around in the pockets of the alpha’s pants until he finds a pack of cigarettes and a lighter.

He opens the window, letting in a refreshing trace of early morning air that blows the haze of sex and pheromones away.

The sun is just starting to rise over the grand, old pine trees that line the campus, touching the dew-swept grass with orange.

Robin doesn’t pay any special attention to it. His eyes rove past it, settling on the horizon while he smokes his cigarette calmly.

He purses his lips, blowing another puff of smoke off the window. The white smoke rises, trailing lazily like a dragon’s plume up to the sky.

“Baby?” the voice calls when he’s almost finished with his cigarette, lightly wheedling with sleep. That tangled mess of sandy blond hair peeks up from the bed. “Baby, it’s cold. Shut the window and come back to bed.”

“Coming,” Robin says lightly.

He finishes the last of his cigarette before stubbing it out on the window sill.

He does leave the window open, but he goes back to bed to warm his companion with his body.

want you so bad

So love me and touch me
Or you can just say nothin’
I’ll read your mind, yeah I’m so high
Lost in your eyes when we’re fuckin’

I don’t usually have full playlists for my books, but I do tend to have one or two songs that I associate with each project. This is one that I listened to while working on Fairytale and First Aid, and it makes me think of Charis and Mouse, specifically.

It’s a sweet, sexy song, and I think they have a sweet, sexy relationship. I have tender feelings about them. Something I’d always wanted to explore a little more is that Charis is ace-coded, and Mouse is aro-coded.

Maybe i want to get a little bit into spoilers, so spoilers below the cut:

Continue reading “want you so bad”

Ongoing series and wtf is happening with them

HELLO. It has come to my attention that I’ve said literally nothing about any of my ongoing series and some of them probably look abandoned. (there is an emoji I want here, but I only have it on Discord)

I’ll probably go into more detail when I have a chance to organize my thoughts, but here is the quickest rundown:

The Witchblood Heir Series (Galahad and Iseult)

I’m not gonna lie–I realize this has been by far my quietest series lately, and it’s because it’s been giving me trouble. I haven’t abandoned this series, though. Not at all. If you’re still with me, I want to keep unfolding Galahad and Iseult’s stories <3

Fragile Tender Series (Nice)

There is another book on the way! It’s a novella focusing on June, set a few years after Coming Home. I was so curious about how these boys would grow and change, and I am excited to show you what happens with June and the rest of the gang.

(Edit: the book is HERE, and it is called Eiderdown!)

Fight for Dreams Series (Charis, Mouse, and the boys of Fairytale)

I would like to keep writing in this series, but as of now, I don’t have any ideas for further full-length books. There are stories I’d like to tell about some individual members, like Kiki and Xiao Yu, or Miyong and Joon.

Honestly, there are even some stories I’d like to tell about some of the First Love members. What can I say? I find our fey Kpop group interesting.

I absolutely have a cute little extra about Charis and Mouse in progress. It’s Christmas-themed, so you might have to wait until December.

The Fox and the Rose (Laurel and Shigeru)

I have a whole series planned for this one, epic danmei-length style. I’ve already written most of the next book, and I am so so excited to share it with you. There are some new characters (and familiar faces) that I think you’re going to love.

red envelopes for the wrong new year

Happy New Year, friends.

I hope your New Year’s Eve was lovely. Mine was uh… loud. The place where I live is surrounded by neighbors setting off fireworks for miles, all of it shooting up into the sky like a long-distance conversation of noise and light.

I also got co-opted for a neighbor’s drum concert, set live in a storage closet, fog machine and strobe lights included. Like I said—loud.

  • I posted an AU of an upcoming book on AO3 yesterday: Safe to Hold.
  • And idk if anyone here partakes in Amazon, but if so, The Electric Hymnal is free until January 4th. aka the one with the Catholic incubus. This book has always been kind of an unloved little duckling, but it still has a soft spot in my heart.

Thanks for sticking by me through another year. I really hope 2025 is the best year to come for all of us. If you’ve fought your way through 2024 tooth and nail, I hope you get some well-deserved rest. And if you’re tired of resting and ready to shake things up, I hope 2025 gives you plenty of opportunity to do the things you care about.

Love you! See you in the new year <3